Sunday, April 21, 2013

Trying but not applying

I have been trying to save money and pay off some of my bills but I can't seem to do it. I thought I was a head but now I am further behind. I tryed doing a second job but I hate cleaning houses and you get payed crap money. Your gone for 8 hours but you only make like $65. It is hard work and it doesn't pay off. I need to find a second job to get me on my feet again. I was thinking about applying at target for the early am position but I have a hard time getting up at 8 let alone 4. I want to send cards with adam to give to the fire fighters but I know he won't. How can I make some extra cash? This is killing me and my relationship.  I'm just so frustrated!

Monday, February 18, 2013

Catch up

So I haven't posted since Valentine's day. I am a slacker I guess. Well friday I got to surprise my niece Kayta to lunch and a move for her birthday.  That was fun! I miss hanging out with my nieces and nephews. They are all getting so old!
Saturday I had to work from 8-6 and I'm glad I did! We had a great day!  We did 107 customers and I made 104 in tips! I love my work when we are busy. After work Adam took me out to eat for Valentine's day. We went to the Ox Yolk In. That was good. Then we went home watched a movie and went to bed. Ended up being a great day.
Sunday I worked and it was kinda slow. I wish it would have been better but we only missed our goal by 2ppl.
Today I slept in. I was going to get up and work out and do my oil pulling but I didn't. I left at noon and bought some new shoes for work. It has been slow tonight though.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Worst day ever...

I'm a girl and its Valentine's day,  you could at least get me a flower and a card! But no all I get is "happy Valentine's day hunny" and then bugs me for sex!  I hate this day! I feel like I don't matter and this relationship is just here for convince. I'm here to pay the bills, make super, and keep the bed warm! So stupid!

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Last for the day

So I get home and boy am I tired. What do I do you ask? I start a few things I found on pintrest! First I do oil pulling, works great! While I am doing that I clen and disinfect my humidifier and try out a new blackhead remover!  I then do some night time bed stretches. Those feel wonderful! So, my day starts off crappy and ends where I feel completely relaxed! Well off to bed.... I will talk more about my pintrest escapades tmrw! Good night!

Getting better

Now that my day is half over I'm happier.  Its crazy what ending one shift does for you!  Its still going to be long but I can do it. One thing that has made my day better. ...
My trader Joe's mac and cheese and the thought of sleeping in tmrw!  YAY!

Woke up this morning. ..

I woke up the morning so crabby! I feel like I hate everything today. I hate my job, my coworkers, my boyfriend, my house, my hrs, and most of all myself.  I don't know why I feel this way. I'm just tired of everything. I hope as the day goes by it gets better. I think it will. Tmrw is Valentine's day and I won't be getting anything.  Adam and I have been struggling with bills and paying things off. I feel like no matter how much we put away we will never get a head. This sucks'

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

There's this girl

There's this girl at work then I'm supposed to treat like a princess she's an amazing woman she's bright she's fun she's amazing at what she does but sometimes she can just be a b**** I'm sick of having to treat people amazingly great treat them the way they think they should be treated when they treat me like s*** I'm sorry but if you're going to be rude I don't want to do with you go home go back to bed and wake up on the other side to this ridiculous

staring again..

So I am going to start blogging again. I think this will help me. I have a lot of people in my life that I could talk to but I have trouble saying my problems out loud. I think that is because I am afraid that they are going to judge me, or I'm going to look stupid. I will fully admit I'm not the smartest person in the world but I do know some stuff. I'm not dumb by any means but I do worry about what other people think.I try on a daily basis to make people happy and lately it feels like I have been putting my happiness on the back burner. It's frustrating because where I am st today in my life I feel I should be happy and thriving.  Living my life to the fullest.  That is not happening!